I'm okay.....am I?

These days....
Life has turn around,
Not the way I like it,
But I guess,
I'm helpless....

I don't know,
Why should I care of this?
Why I even think of it?
It's just an imagination,
But it feels real to me...

Someone asked me,
Am I Okay?
Like usual, I said...
I am OK....
Is that true? They said..
I just smile and walked away...
Not gonna reveal,
What is truly inside of me....
Am I...? Am I....?
Really OK......?

Keep saying,
I should be happy, not sad...
I should smile to everyone,
But isnt lying,
Is a sin....?

What should I do, then?
Should I pretend that everything's okay?
To make everyone's happy?
But how about,...
My own feeling....?